I guess I just worry that it will take a long time once we do go back for treatments, and that there will be a huge age gap between Alexandra and the next child. I want her to have a buddy, a companion, a best friend. I want her to have a playmate and a confidante. I want that for my child. I hope I can give it to her. And then reality crashes in and I realize that I should be less worried about a big age gap and more worried about actually being able to give Alex a sibling :(
So I don't know if we were right in waiting. The thought enters my head that if we actually started ttc after our consultation, we might be about ready to have a baby. That makes me equal parts wistful and semi-relieved. I'm not quite ready for Alexandra to be the older sibling...but I want so badly for her to have a sibling who is close enough in age to be going through the same life experiences. And to share those life experiences.
I hope we did the right thing in waiting. I hope I don't have any regrets.
And on a happier note..some pics of the little monkey :) It's been hot here...95+ degrees. We've spent most of the day outside!